This collection is an ode to my grandfather, who serves as a source of inspiration and plays a central role in the creative process. The work explores the complex and intriguing relationship between memories, identity, and the gradual fading caused by Alzheimer's. It encompasses a multitude of elements, ranging from playfulness to vulnerability, and is intertwined with an obsession for checkered patterns, symbolic of the pattern, structure, and simultaneous fragmentation of memories. At the same time, the vulnerability of his situation is subtly highlighted, with images of lost moments and confused thoughts contrasting with the clarity of his former self. These elements are often depicted in symbolism and fluid lines, emphasizing the fragility and delicacy of memories. It is primarily about exploring the complexity of human experiences and emotions. It is a tribute to my grandfather, his life, and his legacy, and an invitation to reflect on the meaning of memories, both in their clarity and in their fading. I started with a photo series in which I interviewed my family while wearing a bomber jacket inspired by my grandfather. This led to the further development of the collection. After that, I decided to make a narrative fashion video about how my grandad experienced the world and his identity loss.
I wanted to create a short atmospheric video on the beach and in the dunes with my clothing. My grandfather was a true Hagenees, and a beach was featured on his funeral card. This image had always stayed with me. I took photos, and someone else (with an audiovisual background) would shoot the video footage, so I was sure it would go well and not be too overwhelming. I would then edit the footage. I wanted to convey the image of a disturbed perception that kept repeating and playing faster and faster. I intended to emphasize this with distorted sounds, based on associations I had with my grandfather and our relationship.
